It is funny, sitting here, writing again. I have been writing for the past 7 months (I swear!), just not sharing as openly as I have in the past. One fatty lesson gleaned from my blogging and social media-ing: once the toothpaste is out of the tube, it’s almost impossible to get it back in. Not to say that my honesty will wain, or that I am gone from sharing my deepest truths in vulnerable, real, and vibrant ways. I am just learning some WISDOM around what to share, about whom, and with whom.
Needless to say, I have missed you. I am sitting at a Coffee Bean in Rancho Cucamonga, California after a full month of being back in my hometown. I just passed the 3 months prior in South America, as an instructor for a Gap-Year/Study Abroad program called Where There Be Dragons. Yea, rad. (wheretherebedragons.com)
That’s almost funny.
I turned 29 on the 29th of November this year.
Spent the day in hot springs under the gaze of the giant mountain Apu Asungate in Peru.
2014 force fed me all of my shadows. And more are still coming out of the woodwork. Saturn Returns my friends. It is this time in our lives when we actually have to stop saying that we are responsible and actually BE responsible. Or at least that has been my experience thus far.
Money issues, relationship with time, respecting my own boundaries, and creating boundaries in relationships, understanding what sex really means to me, and how important it is to have a fine tube of red lipstick have been the highlights of my current learning.
And the tide that moves it all, authenticity.
Yea. That crap load of a lesson where you can’t tell me what to do, that book can’t tell me what to do, and my mother sure as heck doesn’t have a clue what to tell me. It is me. It’s me and my heart and my womb and my ass on the line because this is the one precious gift we have been given; this life, and this personal honing system to guide us to what we are supposed to do with it called BLISS.
So this is the beginning. Again.
The first chapter of the never ending story.
Consider this blog a warm up.
I am thinking of shooting for the freakin’ stars and saying I will write once a week.
I hope to see you next week.
So far, 2015 is looking pretty hot.